Well there goes the year

New Years Eve 2011. And I was woken up before the sun even rose. Guess the kiddos thought I should "enjoy" every last hour while 2011 was still here. In a few minutes, I will be getting ready to spend my day at work - - helping dreams come true! I will definitely need coffee for this today. Bring it on!

Back to Routine

My last post was quite "facebook cryptic". I apologize for such.

My parents and husband secretly planned for him to fly back to Vegas for Christmas.  It was amazingly wonderful to be in my husband's arms again and to hear his voice in person, not through the advancement of phone technology.  I miss him so terribly much.  This has been a lot harder than I ever expected.  A lot of our preconceived notions and plans just have not worked out the way we had hoped.  It has caused a lot of stress.  But for those few beautifully, wonderful days; it all melted away and everything seemed right again.  He arrived Thursday night before Christmas and flew back to Dallas on Monday afternoon/evening after Christmas.  Here it is now Thursday and I already feel the weight of my longing hard upon my heart and shoulders.  Now begins the long haul until he can make a return trip. At the earliest, I expect maybe sometime in February.  Its even more likely that it will not be until March.  And those will be very quick turn around trips as well...he'll have to drive out one night, spend the next day resting, and drive back the day after that.  Those trips are just to help bring all our ridiculous amount of belongings back from Texas, in hopes that in May its a one smaller truck load trip.

So now that we have spent weeks off of routines and schedules, and the holiday madness is all over, it is time for us to get back on track.  I am hoping that helps the boys feel some normalcy again and that I can get myself back into the groove as well.  Here's to hoping anyway.

Best Gift

It's been a very long, trying three weeks. And last night I received the best gift (and only gift) I could ask for this year. Life is a little better for the next three days. And I'll take what I can get.

First failed goal

I haven't posted about this, but I guess I should. I went out for one of my goals, and failed. I will be trying again, but that really sucked. I have been a hard time with it since. There have been a lot of other trying situations going on right now as well that are causing a lot of stress. I'm trying to not let it all get to me.

First day back

I returned to work today. I am already calling it my "drama free zone.". I needed it. It wasn't to busy but I get myself busy anyway. Picked up our niece tonight, and I'm excited to spend some time with her. Hopefully it starts feeling like the holidays soon.

Le sigh

Im doing awful at blogging now that I am back in Vegas. But then again I thought I would be happier about being back. But the boys are not doing well without Daddy, drama is running rampant elsewhere. I just feel like I jumped the gun on this one.

Rushing in head first

The boys have been so off schedule since the move, it has me second guessing the move sometimes. Them not sleeping has me so exhausted that I'm near tears most of the time. I just am so ready to have my husband back...and it's only been a week. I'm over this whole ordeal and this whole year already. I'm done with the stress of it all one way or another. It would be great to have us all home together where we belong. I need him home soon that's for sure.