Weekend is gone...

Well just about anyways.  And its been a bit productive and a bit lazy all at the same time.  I've been trying to get cleaning done and some organizing.  Still not sure if there is a "surprise" in our future this week...or even two of them.  Hoping so, but only time will tell.

Other than the cleaning, it really has been a very lazy weekend, without really going anywhere or doing anything (other than a little grocery shopping this afternoon).  We are about to end our third month here.  And yet, we are still very much packed in the garage and not quite situated the way we want to be inside the house.  We've got to get this under control.  One major problem of this is that it is so darn hot and humid during the day that more than five minutes in the garage is quite horrendous.  Yet, there is something wrong with the light socket and it keeps blowing light bulbs, hence why we cannot work in there at night either - - no light to see anything.  So for now, most of the unpacking and organizing must wait until the temps cool down a bit.  And then maybe we can pull of a fall garage sale while we are at it.  Hopefully.

I guess one more month down here just means one more month closer to visiting Vegas.  Which truthfully is about one of the few things I look forward to on a day to day basis.

Anticipation

There is no terror in a bang, only in the anticipation of it  ~Alfred Hitchcock 

There is a lot of it going around right now.  There are a few things we are waiting on or waiting to happen.  Anticipation drives me absolutely nuts!  Like the quote above, its not the actual event/thing/action/etc that has all the emotion with it, its the anticipation of said thing.  I'm trying to keep my cool and not stress.  But if you know me, that is a very hard thing to do.  I'm also not good and pretending to be surprised either, and that inevitably will play a part in at least one of the upcoming things.

I'm a bit shaky today due to all of this.  I am trying to find my core, my center just to find a calming point and some peace.  I think there is a need for some yoga today.

Early morning post

I really should have written here yesterday.  It truly was due to an overwhelming laziness on my part.

So far...no good news on the waiting game yet.  Disappointing, frustrating, and just plain annoying at this point. 

I am not a fan of bureaucratic bullsh*t red tape.  It just causes so much grief for the "little person."  I also have stopped keeping up with what is going on with the whole debt crisis.  We've been in our own debt crisis since 2008, so I guess I'm just tired of hearing about it.  Its not that I don't care...I just am tired of all the bickering and moaning and groaning.  If that makes me a horrible person, so be it I guess.  I believe in the government helping its people, and while some leaders are trying so many others are just trying to stifle the attempts.  Its disheartening at the very least.  Hopefully there are some answers out there.  For the sake of the people.

Disappointing

I hate waiting.  And each day that we are having to wait, it makes it that much more of a disappointing day.  We have a lot hanging on this "news", and it would be appreciative by all in my family, I am sure, if everything would just come through already.

In the mean time, its been a loooong day.  A bit of cleaning and a ton of laundry.  Oh so exciting, huh? 

I think I need to revisit my goal list a lot more, I'm beginning to forget what all is even on there.  Although, I did inform the husband of what his deadline is to teach my to drive a stick shift.  Hmm...of course, my license is the first priority.  That is the absolute one thing in my life that makes me feel so...well "loser-ish."  I just feel lame.  Sounds so silly that one little status symbol item would get me down so often, but it does.  Without it, I suffer badly the affects of cabin fever and lose out on a lot of things to do.  So the end of this year, it is one of my goals during my visit back in Vegas.  I think that would make the best Christmas present actually.  I'd be one very happy girl.

Truckin' along

So yesterday was a disappointing bust...sort of.  Some things were confirmed but confirmation surely didn't put it in our hands.  Thus began the waiting game...and we are still waiting.  Hopefully by Monday morning, we will have much better news.

I did finally finish The King's Speech on Thursday night.  WOW!  Beautiful. Stunning. Amazing acting.  It was just a delightful piece of cinema.  I am so glad I decided to do this "challenge" of a goal and to start backwards.  I hope I can get through a lot more of these quickly.  1 down, 82 more to go! Whoa! That's a lot! I've seen a majority of them, but will still be re-watching for the sake of completion of my goal.  There are plenty on the list that I dread though.  Films that I will never understand how they won a Best Picture.  But I am approaching this as I would any film from my Film Studies courses - as a film critic, as a student and with an open mind.

I think I shall dub this "The Lazy Weekend"...that shouldn't need much explanation of what our plans are - - a whole lot of nothing.

Fingers crossed

Again I'm not ready to let the cat out of the bag, in case I jinx it, but I am holding out for some good news tomorrow. 

Its been a really good day. The iron seems to be kicking in already. I've felt so much better all day.  Better feeling and better mood.  Such a simple solution for something that has been causing a lot of issues.  I'm just glad its helping.

Tonight is the night!  I finally am finishing the movie and will be back on track with my goals. I love a good film.  A dream occupation would to be a film critic. Something to think about. 

Good news is...

euphoric to me these days!  We got some potentially great news today...we'll know more on Friday.

And to top it all off, I got the replacement disc of The King's Speech today.  Cannot wait to get back to it tonight. 

Then DH walked in the door with my favorite candy bar when he got home from work.

Despite my utter exhaustion and lack of motivation today, I would consider it a very good day!

This makes sense

So I have had zero energy for awhile now.  Housework, working out, my weight, everything really has suffered from it.  Yet, I am not sure why I didn't think of the problem sooner.  I have iron deficiency anemia.  This is something I've known now for 9 years.  Wow. I can't believe its been that long.  Anyways, I digress...

I got this in an email today :
http://www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=the_weight_loss_key_you_may_be_missing

While I do not have any known thyroid issues, everything about the anemia completely makes sense to me in the article.  Like getting hit in the head with a ton of bricks, and completely feeling idiotic about it because I should of seen it coming.  This describes me perfectly - "I should have realized that feeling weak and tired or not having any stamina during exercise or being winded easily could indicate continued anemia..."

Well there you have it, folks.  And its something I should have thought of because I have had this happen time and time again.  So while yes there could have been other issues, I am almost 100% certain this is the major root of the problem.  I've been there, done that...might even have a tshirt in the back of my closet.  So, back on iron supplements, like a good girl, I will go. 

Now if only I was good at remembering to take pills...

Monday - - again.

78 days since we left Las Vegas.  And we are so not close to unpacking or even being remotely organized inside the house.  And while my plan was to work some more on this today, I have not felt good at all since waking up at the wonderful hour of 5am.  The kids were up before the sun again today, and I'm running low on the energy now that it is mid-day.  I can always hope to actually get some work done tomorrow. 

Foiled again

I will get to watch The King's Speech... eventually.  *Le sigh

Its not to due a lack of trying. I got what I would consider a teaser preview before the disc started major skipping. Hopefully I can finish it later this week with a replacement disc.  It was really well done and I was truly enjoying the film, so I am disappointed. 

Its been a mild weekend, but tomorrow we are starting back into scheduled routine for both the boys and myself. I hope it helps with some of the issues we've all had with the transition of a big move.  To get ready for it, first thing on the agenda is more sleep for me. So that's just where I am headed.

Found it!

I, with a smidgen of help from our four year old, got a tiny dent made in our garage madness today.  And the best part of all - I found exactly what the husband and I have been looking to find for quite some time.  It was nice to be able to find a lot of different items that we actually need and/or use, for once.  We have so much stuff.  I cannot wait to get serious about the major downsizing (including a yard sale).

I am crossing my fingers and hoping I get around to watching the movie tonight. 

*Short post today...I have lots of cleaning and organizing to try to do tonight.   

Almost there...

I am glad this week is coming to an end.  A bit confused where it went so quickly, but glad it is over nonetheless.  I will be very happy to see the weekend.

I have gotten to talk with one friend and one family member over the last few days. It was nice to have just daily chitchat, catching up conversations.  And great human interaction, even if it was via the phone and skype.  At least it was something. 

I have been semi-productive today with cleaning inside the house and searching the garage.  I found some more of our dishes and a few stray items that were M.I.A..  Hopefully the husband and I will have more time this evening to search the garage for other random items (and one specific item we are looking to find). 

I just realized this, but I forgot to mention that I dyed my hair again a week ago.  I am back to all brunette.  This time its a very dark brown, even more so than my normal hair color.  I love it - - A LOT.  It's a color I will probably stick with for some time.

I have not started The King's Speech yet.  Hopefully tonight or tomorrow night.  It has just been one thing or another. 

This wraps up another day...74 days for that matter.

Sick

I'm feeling very gross today. On top of what just might be pink eye (but I hope not). Trying to rest as much as one can with two very rambunctious kids.  I do miss the days that I could sleep until noon to try and feel better.

Goal #54

So while in the most recent weeks, I don't feel I have been doing so well at my Day Zero project, I am excited to get started on my Academy Award Best Picture winners tomorrow.  I will be starting at the most recent and going backwards from there.  We finally found the runaway rogue Netflix disc that I have had since Valentine's Day (oops!) and got it sent back, so now I can get back on track with my queue.  And of course, I am starting with The King's Speech. Cannot wait! I have some other highly rated/highly suggested movies high up on my queue, so hopefully I can get those in quickly as I move on to the next Oscar winning Best Picture films.

One of those

Today is one of those days I wish I could be back in Vegas. Just so I could be there for our friends.  My heart is hurting for them and with them tonight.  Bad news is never easy or fun.

Good for the mind, good for the soul

Ah yes...finally, back to go old fashioned human connections.

We got to spend some time with friends and meeting new people today. It was really nice to be around other people, other adults for that matter.  For awhile I was able to forget the hard times and rough emotional rollercoaster. It felt great talking, joking, hanging out, and making connections with these people.  I'm so glad we had the opportunity to go to the BBQ/party and have some fun.

Only hard part is now I return to reality and every day life. I know that the solitary, hermit lifestyle appeals to someone out there, but surely its not me. Granted, I am neither living in solitude or as a hermit. The point is more that the current lack of adult interaction hurts my inner core. I am a extrovert, a social butterfly,  a people person.  My soul thrives on it. My mental health depends upon it.  I need to find a way to remedy my current "ailment" because I feel I may be close to a breaking point.  Today was the most fun I have had since the move. By far, our best day yet.  This says to me, that we need to find a way to fix this and soon.

Weekend's here...

And I won't finish the Toby Keith song at that point, as we surely won't be drunk. Ha!

I'm glad this week has gone by quickly. Its just been hard emotionally for some reason.  But I'm really looking forward to some socializing tomorrow with the husband's former boss and his family, plus other people as well. It should be fun. 

I'm not doing so well with Couch to 5k. I will revisit that topic soon. I am trying to do pilates and yoga more at home but I probably need to add a cardio/aerobics somewhere during the week.  I'm pretty behind my goal so hopefully I can get back into gear.

Not much else going on for now. So here's to the weekend!

Hit like a ton of bricks

I really don't like how my anxiety just hits so hard out of nowhere.  I miss a lot of people today.  I miss the ease of getting out of the house and around to run errands or see people or...well just about anything outside.  I miss being able to pick up the phone and say, "Hey, mom, we need out sometime this week."  Most days I am okay but for someone reason out of nowhere today I felt like I got hit by a truck.  It really struck me hard and I could barely breath with the panic attack that was surely coming on.  I guess I have a long day a head of me.

Inspired

My mind is going a mile a minute in all directions right now.  I've been checking out ideas for our at-home classroom.  I cannot wait to get started on it!  I'm really excited about it all actually.  We have a small space to work with, so I am trying to come up with ideas to make the most out of what we have.  Lots of ideas, lots of fun ahead - - I hope!  The boys are truly going to LOVE this!  I have a good amount of wall to work with for now.  And if need be, we will overflow into the hallway.  I am going to start making my "want" list soon.  Small steps, but eventually I want it to be a well stocked, at home learning area.  I really love that The Pioneer Woman has a whole section on Homeschooling.  I could get addicted. 

Week...whatever

Yeah so its not that I have lost count on how long we've been here, its just that all the days mesh together for me when I'm not working or am not out of the house and more active.  I kept thinking it was Sunday all day long today.  Maybe that is partly due to the very long night we had last night with kiddos that did not want to go back to sleep.  After 3 hours of sleep, I was back up and at it this morning as they were bright eyed and bushy tailed.  I've survived the day, with a nap albeit, but I can feel the crash and burn coming soon as it is now 11:30pm. 

I am still contemplated my "classroom" learning area for in the house.  We've got the part of the front room pegged for where, but now its coming up with exactly how I want to set it up once we can do so.  I am a bit excited over this!  I have lots of ideas and really hope we can get going on this.

Its been a pretty mellow, relax at home weekend.  Not sure what the rest of the week will bring or if I'll make anymore plans.  I guess that all depends on the weather outside as well.  It would be nice to take the boys out.  Yet, it gets so warm so early in the day that it makes it hard to do so.  I will be happy when September rolls around.

Overestimated myself

I've always thought I had an iron stomach. It takes a lot to gross me out!  Well, that was true until moving to Texas.  I am so over the icky critters around here. Heebie jeebie central.  Now its all about learning how to rid our house of these pests. Its a whole new world for us. Some days I swear I'm in yet another horrible sequel to Starship Troopers.  Oh the joy.

Patience

“Patience and fortitude conquer all things” - Ralph Waldo Emerson
“The key to everything is patience. You get the chicken by hatching the egg, not by smashing it.” - Arnold H. Glasgow
“Patience can't be acquired overnight. It is just like building up a muscle. Every day you need to work on it.” -Eknath Easwaran

The subject of tonight's post is quite obvious.  We all know "Patience is a Virtue", but we also all joke that we either have none or it is the hardest of all virtues to possess.  I have found since becoming a mother, I have even less patience than I did before.  Who knew that was even possible.  One would think that after having children, you'd learn the art of patience much better due to the nature of parenting and children.  Instead, I feel as if it is all lost.  I am slowly working on my expectations and my patience in certain situations.  Its a learning experience and it will take time.  I hope it will also, in turn, help my children to have patience in the things they do and with the world around them.  

Patience with a 4 1/2 year old and an almost 2 year old is not an easy thing.  Its as if their daily duty is to try my patience to the very end as those tired, little eyes finally close, and they drift off into what I am beginning to call my "Bliss time."  Its that time of day that it is finally quiet, the screeching and whining has ceased, and all finally is peaceful in the world.  That's not the time of day I need help with...its all those other hours.  So I have gone to reading lots of different opinions and methods on the matter.  Ways to help both their behavior and my own.  It all comes down to basically the same five elements:

1.  Examine, and possibly change, your expectations
2. Don't take the fights and outbursts personally
3. Adjust your parenting style to fit the child
4. Have a consistent discipline strategy 
5. Take a time out for yourself (either from the situation at hand, or just in general time for yourself)

It all sounds so simple, but sometimes I think we adults forget those steps after they've been in this crazy journey called "parenthood."  Its easy to say what you do or don't want to do as a parent when you don't have kids yet and are just developing the "dream" in your head.  The reality changes a whole lot once those lovely little humans start developing their own personalities and ideas - - once they start challenging you in ways you never knew possible.  These are the times that patience is needed the most.  So, here I am, tired and weary...but most of all trying to learn and find patience when it seems I have none left.  Its there, hidden, but there.  

Weekend

So late last night, the husband's boss came by to let us borrow her car again for the weekend.  While we don't have plans, it'll be nice if we do want to go anywhere. 

The bug guy is coming back this afternoon.  Hopefully it gets a lot better.  All I can say is blech to all the bugs out here.

Its a holiday weekend. Not much to do here.  We'll be thinking about our friends and family back in Vegas.  I hope everyone has a safe and fun Independance Day.