Long time in the making

I am not even sure how I got to this moment.  Its interesting the little things that can completely change your way of thinking...in such a short amount of time.  I have recently come in contact with someone from my past and 14 years later, we are learning to be friends again.  Its been already a great couple of weeks getting to know each other again and learning about each others' lives since we parted paths.  It feels like I had something missing for those 14 years and didn't even realize it until it was found again.  I have a very special and important friend back...and it feels good to have that again.

And that isn't the last of my path of reconciliation it seems.  I have not seen my father since I was 18.  And I'd be lying if I said that didn't phase me.  I put on the tough girl mask that I am okay with it, but many times I am not.  It doesn't tear me up inside or affect me in a way that makes me sad.  I don't expect to have the closest of relationships, because really we never did, but I would at least try to salvage something with him.  I was just recently told that "Time is precious."  And this is something I have always known...I have been through my own times of loss and struggle, but something about it this time hit home.  So I reached out.  Trying to make amends in different areas of life I guess.  Coming up on 31 years of this life and I am still constantly learning about being human and how we make this life worth it each and every day.

I just re-watched Ellen DeGeneres' Here and Now special again the other night.  She makes a big play on procrastination.  And while I believe her view is spot on...we move to fast in life and aren't trying to truly enjoy its pleasures...we also need to remember what we SHOULD procrastinate and what things we just need to get over ourselves about and just do it!

So just remember, put off the things that can wait until tomorrow but learn to enjoy what you can for today:

“Procrastination is not the problem. It is the solution. It is the universe's way of saying stop, slow down, you move too fast. Listen to the music. Whoa whoa, listen to the music. Because music makes the people come together, it makes the bourgeois and the rebel. So come on people now, smile on your brother, everybody try to love one another. Because what the world needs now is love, sweet love. And I know that love is a battlefield, but boogie on reggae woman because you're gonna make it after all. So celebrate good times, come on. I've gotta stop I've gotta come to my senses, I've been out riding fences for so long... oops I did it again... um... What I'm trying to say is, if you leave tonight and you don't remember anything else that I've said, leave here and remember this: Procrastinate now, don't put it off. ” - Ellen DeGeneres