Eyes Wide Shut

No not the movie.  Just felt it expressed how I was feeling currently.  I am sitting in bed with my youngest and falling asleep fast.  I need a good night's sleep but I know that is a pipe dream.  I wouldn't say this was even one iota of a productive weekend.  But it was a very good weekend.  Too bad it goes so fast. I realize more and more the people who will always help me get through the hard times.  The list has dwindled over the years.  And I actually like it that way.  If you can't handle it when I'm at my worst and lowest, you don't deserve to be around for my best. I have my few select.  You better believe that I would do anything for them as well.  I may not have a lot of family.  My few have made up for that.  Sometimes you have to pick your own family.  I am very proud of those people so close to me that I get to call them my brothers or sisters.  They are as much of my world as my beautiful babes that lay near me now fast asleep.  And we all have each other when our backs are against the wall.  I am very happy to be where I am today.  Some days I made it here on the shoulders of these few that I cherish so deeply.  Sometimes I've carried them.  This.  This is what life is about.  Pure, honest love for another human being.