Champagne would fall from the heavens...

or at least confetti from the sky.  Neither of which has happened to commemorate our 100th day here in Texas.  And I'm really not celebrating either.  I am so over the whole ordeal really.  Just trying to get the things done that we want to get done and move on from there.  We have had a few obstacles and unforeseen things hinder a lot of our plans. This has contributed to the ever growing desire to not be here.  I just wish I knew how to really get motivated again and get done what needs to be done.

A whole lotta...nada

I am not even sure where this day went, as we literally did absolutely nothing all day.  One kiddo was sick as the day started, and so it really just became a lazy day for all of us at home. 

Due to the recommendation of someone, I have started a new HBO miniseries - Mildred Pierce.  I enjoy Kate Winslet and she isn't disappointing at all in this either.  Its a good "strong woman" overcoming adversity movie thus far.  Of course, I am only in the first episode, but I am sure it will continue to be just as good.  Its also a period piece of the 1930s, another thing I really enjoy as well.  The costuming, sets, everything is done very nicely.  I wish I could walk in heels as much as the women back then did. I wish I was a better housewife for that matter some days. So much as been lost in the decades since the 1950s that is for sure.  While I am not saying I want to be stuck at home being the "little wife", I do wish I was just better at taking care of our home.  I lack the energy most days to get everything done that needs to be done.  And I feel bad for that.  Kate Winslet's character spent a day just baking all day.  Oh wouldn't that be nice.  Not realistic, but nice.  I do feel that some of my lack of motivation also is due to the convenience of modern technology.  I need to have a technology "detox" and soon.

Best weekend since April

Due to unforeseen circumstances, family got to stay here a little longer than expected.  And its been thoroughly enjoyable.  Although we haven't been able to do a whole lot, we have had a good time.  They are leaving in a couple of hours and will be back on the road back to Las Vegas.  Its been a good visit.  Hopefully this will be the start of a round of visits and our trips back for us as well.

I am really hoping to start working on some of our personal goals (not necessarily Day Zero) that we had set and talked about before moving here.  We have a lot on our plate, and we have a lot to take care of at this point.  We have been in a rut since getting here and its really not helping us out one bit.  I need to get my act together and actually do something.  I was much more optimistic when I got here than I am now. I need to fix that.

We are really hoping that this week might bring a bit of a change that will help us.  I'd say only time will tell, but we've been waiting on it for months now.  Let's hope this is our week.

Anti-climactic

For what has felt like the longest week ever, that was supposed to lead up to some fun and highlights of our "stay" here in Dallas thus far, has turned into really not much different than any other weekend.  Due to understandable circumstances, a fellow mommy was not able to make it over yesterday and I completely understand.  I was looking forward to getting to meet some new people, but it will happen in due time.  The rest of it all though really just has lead up to a whole lot of nada at the moment.  We are still "waiting" but no longer hoping for some incoming finances that should have come our way two weeks ago now (if not months before).  And our guests aren't making as good as time as was hoped, so our time with them will be cut extremely short.  Its just par for the course really, but nonetheless makes this the most anti-climactic weekend since we moved.  Sort of like a Tom Cruise movie...or a Michael Bay movie...a whole lot of hype and build up for something that, at the very best, will be a mediocre waste of anticipation and time.

Boring thus far

So we are now a couple days into our fourth month here.  And a whole lot of nothing is going on really.  Not that I am expecting excitement and thrills.  Just an observation that we are in this "rut" of not really anything going on and not a whole lot changing at the moment.  Other than the impressive for Texas heat....that is not so impressive for someone from Las Vegas.

I said a while ago I wanted to fix the look of this blog, and yet nothing there yet either.  I need to really find the time and patience to actually do that.  And maybe someone more knowledgeable to help guide me through it, too.  Its so blah and not pleasing to the eye currently.  I must fix that.

The weekend is finally within site.  Its been such a looong first week of August.  We have some family stopping by this weekend, and I am almost certain this will be the highlight of the last three months for us.  Sad but true.  It will be a good time, and far too short.  But at least we will get to see some family and the boys will get to hang out with their best buddies!  Now its just getting through the next two days until they get here. 

And then its just convincing other people to come see us, too!

New project

I have a new goal/project that I am hoping to work on each day.  I can't talk to many details since I know I have friends that read this, but hopefully it will spread a little "sunshine" around to those I know.  I love starting things like this.  It makes me happy. 

I am going soooo slow on the movie goal though.  Same as the book goal.  At this rate, I will never read enough books by my goal date.  But I will certainly try my best.  I also have a lot of movies to get cranked out here.  I am not sure that I am looking forward to The Hurt Locker.  Obviously it won the attention of The Academy but I am not a big war movie fan to begin with, so I don't know how I feel about this one.  But its the next movie in line.  So that means I need to get cracking on watching Black Swan since that it just the movie I currently have in my possession from Netflix.  I need to see how many of these films Netflix has.  I know I have a few on my instant streaming, but those are some older ones that I have awhile until I get to them.  I will get there.

I am pretty hopeful for this weekend, it should at least give us all a moment of pick me up and a refresher.  And then after that I really am going to try to make a better effort at being happy here.  A friend and former coworker of mine posted this on Facebook -
         "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections."

Wow! I think that could have been written/said right at me! Sheesh.  Guess its time to get the act together and start actually coping instead of moping.

Across the 2nd Dimension

Some days I feel stuck in the 2nd dimension.  I feel like we are just walking through the steps right now and not really getting to do much else.  We are in "time out" right now.  That's how it feels being here.  I know that is so absolutely negative, but I've tried...truly I am trying every day...to just be okay with where we are for now.  And its not working.  Exile is exile no matter how you look at it.  Dramatic? Eh, probably.  But than if that is how you think I am reacting (or over-reacting), just use my schooling as an excuse.  I know a lot of this has to do with being sort of "stuck" with not having a vehicle or way to get out to meet people.  As much as I'm all for the bus and the train system here, the heat is so overbearing right now that I cannot be out alone with the boys in this.  There's no way I would do that.  I guess I just want to feel better and I don't know how to do that.  But hopefully this weekend will bring a little pick-me-up.  Ha! Its only the end of Monday, and I'm already talking about the weekend.  See...told you.