So our AC went out early this evening right around dinner time. Its been a pretty rough night. Tomorrow they are supposed to be coming out to take a look at it and fix the problem. Or they better darn well be doing something. We are all dripping in sweat. The animals look pitifully miserable. And I am now battling a migraine and asthma issues. Fan-flippin-tastic. We are most likely heading out somewhere, anywhere, with AC for the day tomorrow while things are getting fixed. This just is going to be a horrible night to get through though.
On a side note though, we have started discussing some things about the next year or so. I am really just wanting to keep an open mind about our plans and see where it goes. I know what my current verdict would be if we had to make choices right now, but we have a lot to figure out before we have to decide. Hopefully this will help us in getting some things done here in Dallas that we need to do as well, financially and otherwise. There is a lot going on all at once, but I am feeling better and more confident currently that I have in a couple of months.
21 August, 2011
19 August, 2011
Defining the moment
Exile means to be away from one's home (i.e. city, state or country), while either being explicitly refused permission to return and/or being threatened with imprisonment or death upon return. It can be a form of punishment. - "Exile", Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Exile
ex·ile [eg-zahyl, ek-sahyl] noun, verb, -iled, -il·ing.
noun
1. expulsion from one's native land by authoritative decree.
2. the fact or state of such expulsion: to live in exile.
3. a person banished from his or her native land.
4. prolonged separation from one's country or home, as by force of circumstances: wartime exile.
5. anyone separated from his or her country or home voluntarily or by force of circumstances.
"Force of circumstances." So for us that "force" would be that our choice was to either live homeless (as we had just moved out of our current home and were staying with family) AND unemployed (my part time job excluded here), or move against our desires in order to keep both employment and a home. Its those hard choices that come with being an adult. Yet, I don't think I should have to like these choices either. We have responsibilities to take care of, obviously, but still I feel like life would somehow feel easier being within the same city as our support system.
I'll be completely honest. I am ready to go home. We have 8 1/2 months before that is really even a possibility...and not even sure how possible it will be just yet.
ex·ile [eg-zahyl, ek-sahyl] noun, verb, -iled, -il·ing.
noun
1. expulsion from one's native land by authoritative decree.
2. the fact or state of such expulsion: to live in exile.
3. a person banished from his or her native land.
4. prolonged separation from one's country or home, as by force of circumstances: wartime exile.
5. anyone separated from his or her country or home voluntarily or by force of circumstances.
"Force of circumstances." So for us that "force" would be that our choice was to either live homeless (as we had just moved out of our current home and were staying with family) AND unemployed (my part time job excluded here), or move against our desires in order to keep both employment and a home. Its those hard choices that come with being an adult. Yet, I don't think I should have to like these choices either. We have responsibilities to take care of, obviously, but still I feel like life would somehow feel easier being within the same city as our support system.
I'll be completely honest. I am ready to go home. We have 8 1/2 months before that is really even a possibility...and not even sure how possible it will be just yet.
18 August, 2011
What day is it?
This week is even slower than last. Sheesh. Not that we have plans for any day this weekend or that we have a way to even do anything, but still the slower the weeks move, the longer it feels like we've been here.
What I really need to put my focus and energy into is the two year old birthday we have coming up in two weeks. Nothing planned at all. So not like us...or me at least. I'm a planner. And I sure have not done well at planning anything since we've moved. I need to figure out what our "theme" is this year at least for a cake, even if its just us at home.
My posts are getting shorter and shorter. I should spend more time really coming up with better blogging subjects. And this is why I am not a writer.
What I really need to put my focus and energy into is the two year old birthday we have coming up in two weeks. Nothing planned at all. So not like us...or me at least. I'm a planner. And I sure have not done well at planning anything since we've moved. I need to figure out what our "theme" is this year at least for a cake, even if its just us at home.
My posts are getting shorter and shorter. I should spend more time really coming up with better blogging subjects. And this is why I am not a writer.
16 August, 2011
Relief
I have started on a melatonin/herbal supplement. WOW! One night and already I can deal the difference. Sleep was actually restful, even if short. I am already about to drift off to sleep again after tonight's dose. Seriously, I cannot remember the last time that I drifted off to sleep instead of major crashing from sleep deprivation or forcing myself to sleep after hours and hours of just laying there. Finally. Something that is working for me. I need this so badly and am really happy that it works thus far.
There are 16 days until we officially have a two year old on our hands. I don't even know how to comprehend that just yet. I still feel like we just brought him home from the hospital. I bet I cry on his birthday. Yes, I am that mom. These last two years have been so crazy and whirlwind! I cannot believe by the end of the year, the boys will be two years old and five years old. It happens all so quickly.
The emotions are starting to roll in, so I am pretty sure that means I need to go to sleep. Aaah the restfulness of slumberland, how I have missed thee....zzzzzzzzzzzzz
There are 16 days until we officially have a two year old on our hands. I don't even know how to comprehend that just yet. I still feel like we just brought him home from the hospital. I bet I cry on his birthday. Yes, I am that mom. These last two years have been so crazy and whirlwind! I cannot believe by the end of the year, the boys will be two years old and five years old. It happens all so quickly.
The emotions are starting to roll in, so I am pretty sure that means I need to go to sleep. Aaah the restfulness of slumberland, how I have missed thee....zzzzzzzzzzzzz
15 August, 2011
30 minutes left
The days get away from me and I have forgotten to blog the past few days.
I have my first full blown ear infection since I was probably a small child. Its painful. I don't know how kids do it. I have a high threshold for pain and I have been near tears for two days already. I have taken it easy, so hopefully some more rest tonight will help things along. I really hope it doesn't last much longer. One of the boys is sick too. Not sure what is going on, but he has had an on and off slight fever all day. Hope tomorrow is much better for all of us.
I could use a better day for sure.
I have my first full blown ear infection since I was probably a small child. Its painful. I don't know how kids do it. I have a high threshold for pain and I have been near tears for two days already. I have taken it easy, so hopefully some more rest tonight will help things along. I really hope it doesn't last much longer. One of the boys is sick too. Not sure what is going on, but he has had an on and off slight fever all day. Hope tomorrow is much better for all of us.
I could use a better day for sure.
12 August, 2011
Out and about
So we finally got out to one of the mommy group play date events. And we all had a blast! It was nice to meet some other moms and get some adult interaction. And the boys made some new friends. Yay. After the meet up, we checked out one of the area malls. It was, so far, the nicest one we have been to out here. Hopefully we will get more time to check it out again.
My insomnia is getting the best of me. Isn't that what insomnia does? While I had a good time today, I am feeling horrible. The day after no sleep nights, I feel like I use to when I would be out all night drinking. Dehydrated, sore, foggy, drained, and just plan gross. I have to start looking into supplements and other possible remedies/treatments for this. I cannot keep going on like this. I am not functioning well at this point, which really isn't a good thing being the at-home parent. I need to get a hold of the reins on this. I am so over not sleeping and feeling like a zombie all the time.
My insomnia is getting the best of me. Isn't that what insomnia does? While I had a good time today, I am feeling horrible. The day after no sleep nights, I feel like I use to when I would be out all night drinking. Dehydrated, sore, foggy, drained, and just plan gross. I have to start looking into supplements and other possible remedies/treatments for this. I cannot keep going on like this. I am not functioning well at this point, which really isn't a good thing being the at-home parent. I need to get a hold of the reins on this. I am so over not sleeping and feeling like a zombie all the time.
11 August, 2011
Difficulty
I am having the hardest time finding preschool options right now. Both boys are ahead as it is. With our oldest son's birthday late in the year, he really gets the shaft on getting into school early. The school district we currently live in apparently isn't that great. All the private schools are ridiculous in pricing, and there are not public programs here like there were back in Vegas. I'm frustrated and really upset that we cannot get them into school early like we have always planned. Its really beginning to get to me. They need the social interaction more than anything else. Its times like this that make me feel bad because all our plans just get thrown out the window. And times like this that just make me want to head back to Vegas as soon as we can. Which is just not a viable option at the moment.
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