Whirlwind and Thought Processes

The last few days have been a whirlwind of non-stop on the go.  We finally received some money we were waiting on, so its been a lot of essentials that we have been out getting and making sure things were taken care of.  On top of that, we are also car hunting.  No luck there yet.  But it has been quite nice to be able to do some things that we normally wouldn't be able to do, as well.

So someone asked a thought provoking question, on a message board I am a member of, that has had me constantly thinking.

"If you had a talk show, what would your first show subject be?"

And this is something I have never thought about, but immediately I knew it would be Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness.  I started thinking logistics, segments of the show, even a celebrity guest (Lisa Ling) who is an advocate for the cause.  It really hit me hard how beyond important this issue truly is to me and how heavy it weighs on my heart.  I think I want to start finding ways to help educate people about miscarriage, stillbirths, and infant loss.  As my mom had mentioned a few weeks ago, it has always been a higher percentage than most people realize AND yet is still a very taboo topic that so many still try to brush under the rug or hide in the darkest corners of the closets.  Its about time we spoke out already.  Children deserve someone to speak up for them when they themselves never get the chance.  Now if only I had a talk show. Hmm.

About Time

Well its been a really good past couple of days.  Lots of plans in the makings and feeling really good about things.  Hopefully everything stays on this up and up path.  We need it.

Short post. Feeling ill tonight and just cannot focus.  Hope its a good weekend for all.

Not shocked at all

We watched the Republican Presidential Candidates Debate on MSNBC this evening.  And while I am a card carrying Non-Partisan (and happy to be so), tonight solidified my feelings that the GOP is headed in a horrible direction if it continues on its current path.  There was a lot of word vomit, several trainwrecks, false accusations, and just plain uneducated statements parading on that stage.  While I currently agree much more with Democrat candidates and politics at this current time, there have been plenty of wonderful Republican politicians in U.S. history (and plenty awful Democrat ones for that matter).  Yet, what is happening to the present GOP politics is just shameful.  I truly do believe that the majority of this is due to the further and further from center their ideas and platforms get.  The more Tea Party politics become a "Republican" ideal, the worse off the GOP appears.  The Tea Party is getting a free ride on the Republican ticket right now, which I truly feel is wrong and inappropriate.  If you want to be a "party" then do so.  Stand up and own it.  Be what you really are.  Break through the current two party system instead of riding on the Republican name when you are so far right from even the best Republican's conservative politics. 

I try not to post a lot on politics as I typically keep that between myself, the husband, and close friends.  This evening was just such a joke for me.  It was helpful to see which candidates are going to have a chance as the campaign goes on longer, but that really is about it for me.  I just got to know more likely which one of two names that I will not be digitally punching come next November.  But no surprise there either.

Good day

Today was a nice, relaxing, family day. 

I made a new schedule for the boys, and today was the first day that we got to really follow it.  It felt really good and we also got some school work in for my four year old. 

And the husband and I finally got to get into the garage to rearrange, move, uncover, and find where some of our belonging have been hidden/boxed up.  We had a goal to move and rearrange a little bit in there.  So mission accomplished...for the time being.

So really a not very thought provoking post today, but its time to relax and hopefully soon find sleepyland. Three day weekend is officially over.

Lessons

One of my plans for this evening (or maybe during nap time) is to work out some solid lesson plans for the boys for the next month.  I need to get into my fall decor as well and hopefully get some of that out for the lessons.  I am going with a fall theme for now and with incorporate other things along the way as well.

I am not sure how well we will stick to everything daily, but I really want to try and get more serious about this. 

On top of all that, I am also working on potty boot camp with our youngest.  Its been trying thus far but hopefully we'll continue to make some progress there as well.

Nothing big planned for the week but hopefully some good starts on many other things I am trying to get done with being at home with the boys.

Four Months

Well if nothing else, at least this last month really flew by.  Four months here in Texas and still feel like a tourist...and exiled tourist.  We are making plans and trying to get a lot of things in order for ourselves though.  I have a busy week of phone calls and research a head of me.  Hopefully the husband can find out some good news as well.  I need to make myself a list just to make sure I have everything in order and know where I am at with it all.  I am an organized planner.  I feel at peace with decisions and goals and life in general when I have ample time to plan and plan thoroughly.  This means making back up plans and extra options as well.  Yes, I over plan.  And I feel much moreat ease with situations this way.  My anxiety is lower and my general happiness is higher, if I am give n the right amount of time to deal with a situation.

Tomorrow is some working and rearranging in the garage.  And as I was just informed, "cooler" weather for once.  Something below 100 degrees is nice enough, but supposedly the high will only hit 90.  I am quite okay with that.  The humidity is definitely making it feel hotter here than it ever did in Tennessee.  Its not something I was prepared for and I could definitely do without it as well.  I cannot wait for fall and being able to just load the boys into the stroller and walk.  I need to be walking but these summer temps have just been unbearable for me.  I'll be glad to see the cooler days coming.

You don't look sick

This keeps coming up recently about how so many people just judge others with this whole "Well you don't look ill" load of b.s.  And its got me thinking, especially as I sit here feeling quite ill at the moment.  There are so many people out there way worse off than I am even, and still look quite healthy and happy.  Its all in the attitude for one and how you approach life and your illness(es).  Chronic diseases and disorders are all too often "hidden" ailments.  Allergies, Asthma, Crohn's, Diabetes, PCOS, depression, blood disorders, etc...the list goes on and on.  I have several different things that I deal with just on a daily basis, usually not debilitating but still there none the less.  I even have two very different blood issues that can cause some major problems when it comes time for surgeries and such.  I never though I'd be one of those people checking the box "Blood Transfusion".  And here I am six transfusions later.  And that's just the beginning of it all.  I'm not here to list off all my conditions or for a pity party.  All that I have been through has made me who I am today, and despite it all, I am proud to be here still.  To be able to stand up for others who may be too weak or ill to do so.  Its one of my passions in life, to fight for those who are unable to fight for themselves.

But back to the attitude and outlook of it all.  Some of the "sickest" people I know are also some of the most "wealthy in life" people as well.  They persevere through it all as strong, happy individuals and make the absolute best of their situations.  Some of them just young children.  Its hard dealing with lifetime disease and managing the pain and stress that comes with it, so please remember that just because someone looks great doesn't mean they don't have their own personal struggles going on.  Educate yourself and others to understand chronic disease. I am a big advocate for this.  Judging before knowing the details is always one of my biggest pet peeves.

And for those of you living with these diseases and disorders, remember you are still amazing and wonderful through it all.  Be strong.  You can do it.  Be an advocate for yourself and others dealing with the same circumstances.  You are amazingly wonderful inside and out.  You may be sick, but you can be anything you want in life...you are you and there is nothing better to be in this world.

Support links and references:
http://alwayssick.com/

http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/

And I will leave you with one of my favorite songs currently:

"I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says
Who says you’re not star potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, oh
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful"