Suh-PIIES!

Well, that's how my two year old says it.  But no matter what, I love good surprises. I love being surprised, and I definitely love surprising people.  That's what makes this time of year so much fun.  I spent about an hour on websites, especially Toys 'R Us, today, just brainstorming and dreaming up some good surprises.  And I think I married the Master of Surprise, one of the main reasons I love him so.  I think the coming weeks and months have some good things in store.

A poem today

there are so many tictoc
clocks everywhere telling people
what toctic time it is for
tictic instance five toc minutes toc
past six tic

Spring is not regulated and does
not get out of order nor do
its hands a little jerking move
over numbers slowly

   we do not
wind it up it has no weights
springs wheels inside of
its slender self no indeed dear
nothing of the kind.

(So,when kiss Spring comes
we'll kiss each kiss other on kiss the kiss
lips because tic clocks toc don't make
a toctic difference
to kisskiss you and to 
kiss me)

-e. e. cummings 

Two weeks

until Thanksgiving...What are you thankful for this year?

Reactions

I have been quite surprised at the reactions about this new change.  Especially those who are living here/from here/etc.  Nearly everyone has mentioned how hard it is to move to Texas. Hmm...interesting.  I can come up with about 1000 theories as to why.  But then maybe I just don't adapt well in trying situations.  Or maybe I was fighting this before it even happened.  I really was happy and excited about getting out of Las Vegas...but then maybe that was more of me guarding myself over how hard this was going to be in the first place.  I will be a busy, busy woman for the next few weeks. I cannot wait for things to settle down for a bit.

This is really happening...

And fast!

I have so much to do. We all have a lot to do in a very short amount of time.  There are preparations on both ends of this as well. Yesterday was a bit stressful because things weren't working out exactly how we had hoped/liked, but I think we have worked it all out now...at least I hope so.  There is always some anxiety that comes with big decisions, at least for me, but I just keep telling myself that in the long run its for the better.

Seven months almost always seems like a short time span, until now. After being separated from all the things we love and enjoy, its been the longest seven months. I am ready to feel at ease and to relax.  I realize now that I have been on edge in some way or form the entire time we have been here.  I need the break, that's for sure. 

We tried. We tried hard. But this just has not worked for us. Its not a good fit.  I feel somewhat guilty about that, but when you feel this awful deep down inside, there is no denying that we just do not belong in Dallas. Its not for our family. Its not even beneficial for our family. We need to be home.  And apparently, this is not home. 

Quickly changing

Who knew plans could change so quickly and feel so much better that way?! 

Plans to stagger out our return to Vegas are coming to fruition.  A few things are still sketchy, but its coming together currently.  There are still pros and cons to this decision, but in the long run and as a whole it will be for the better.

Now its all about figuring out all the little details and getting organized in 21 days....and GO!

6 months

Well we made it through Hallowe'en without family and friends.  Like I said to the husband last night, I am glad we won't be doing that again next year. 

And now marks our 6 months here.  It was all uphill to get here, let's hope its a fast roll downhill out of here.  There are some sketchy details waiting upon further evaluation of the situation back home, but there is absolute certainty that by the end of the next 6 months we will be leaving Texas.  And truly just the thought makes me happy.  The waiting is the hardest part.