Immobile

Being a mom of two on the go - go - go boys, it is very hard and very frustrating not being able to get around easily right now.  To add to my foot injury, my knee is now out from being in a bent position so much (from walking with crutches or elevated while sleeping).  Tonight I am in a lot more pain than I was last night.  So much for progress.  Tomorrow I return to work.  I am a bit wary on how this will go, as 99.99% of my day is spent up and walking...usually at a very fast pace.  And carrying items.  All of which I will be incapable of doing while on crutches.  I am hoping that I will be at least on both feet, albeit hobbling probably, by Monday.  This crutches business is for the birds!  I truly don't know how I did this so much as a kid/teenager.  Sheesh.  Of course, I guess I could just use the excuse I was a lot younger and not a parent.  I do know that if this ever happens again, I will be asking for the walking boot or whatever such thing would be available at the time.  I need time off my foot, I know, but now this is just tedious and hard with the boys...making meals, wrangling for bed times or getting out of the house, etc. I need something just a tad easier currently.  Of course, I know this would be different a bit if my husband was able to be home with us.  But then in the end, lets hope I don't do this again.  I really could go the rest of my life without crutches or intense injuries to my feet anymore.  I've had more than my fair share.

Injured

So while out for a walk late Saturday night, I slipped on a rock and injured my foot. After a visit to quick care, at least it wasn't broken...but the sprain is pretty bad. It's put a snag in some plans and other daily activities. I despise crutches and currently that is my mode of transportation. It's tedious, especially as a mom of two boys whose husband is 20 hours away. It's been a long few days...and I know there are several more ahead as well.

Refresh

So while I haven't been to church in quite some time...for many reasons that I do not need to get into on here...I have pulled out some of my worship music and other Christian music cds.  I don't feel all music needs to be Christian music, or anything else in life like that either.  I do feel that we are called to be Christians WITHIN the world around us, not eliminate all things around us to only be Christian and only Christian.  But I digress.  The point is that it really feels like I need to spend sometime on my own spirituality and faith.  I haven't done this is a very long time.  I need the refreshing feeling of this.  I miss singing alone in a room all my own and feeling on a whole different spiritual level, in tune with Yahweh.  I need some time to focus on such things again.  While I've had my reasons, I do feel the need for a renewal, a refresher, of the heart and soul.

"Vacation" is over

We've basically been gone for about a week and a half at my mom's...give or take a day or two. While I know my parents needed the break, today was super crazy having all the kids back together (my nephew and niece plus my two). Space small, too many kids = quick route to headaches. Bed time has been rough tonight, too. Hopefully, we are back in routine FAST. The three of us just function better that way. I barely remember the days of unstructured, no routine days anymore. That all flew out the window with our firstborn who was practically born with a schedule and routine of his own. It's now just a way of life for us. And I actually don't like how it feels without it either...too chaotic and too many tantrums. I prefer the peace that follows after we are in a routine. I guess I need it to thrive as much as they do.

"If Mama's not happy, ain't nobody happy!"

New

New day, new week, new month and new year. Hoping for a great 2012!

Well there goes the year

New Years Eve 2011. And I was woken up before the sun even rose. Guess the kiddos thought I should "enjoy" every last hour while 2011 was still here. In a few minutes, I will be getting ready to spend my day at work - - helping dreams come true! I will definitely need coffee for this today. Bring it on!

Back to Routine

My last post was quite "facebook cryptic". I apologize for such.

My parents and husband secretly planned for him to fly back to Vegas for Christmas.  It was amazingly wonderful to be in my husband's arms again and to hear his voice in person, not through the advancement of phone technology.  I miss him so terribly much.  This has been a lot harder than I ever expected.  A lot of our preconceived notions and plans just have not worked out the way we had hoped.  It has caused a lot of stress.  But for those few beautifully, wonderful days; it all melted away and everything seemed right again.  He arrived Thursday night before Christmas and flew back to Dallas on Monday afternoon/evening after Christmas.  Here it is now Thursday and I already feel the weight of my longing hard upon my heart and shoulders.  Now begins the long haul until he can make a return trip. At the earliest, I expect maybe sometime in February.  Its even more likely that it will not be until March.  And those will be very quick turn around trips as well...he'll have to drive out one night, spend the next day resting, and drive back the day after that.  Those trips are just to help bring all our ridiculous amount of belongings back from Texas, in hopes that in May its a one smaller truck load trip.

So now that we have spent weeks off of routines and schedules, and the holiday madness is all over, it is time for us to get back on track.  I am hoping that helps the boys feel some normalcy again and that I can get myself back into the groove as well.  Here's to hoping anyway.