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I almost nearly didn't get this blog out in time.

So the inlaws are on their way back to Michigan early in the morning.  Tonight we did a little celebration/party/dinner thing for my kiddo's 2nd birthday (which is on Thursday).  Pizza, cupcakes, and a few presents.  He had a lot of fun.  I mostly am just exhausted from the last five days. What craziness.  It was nice to have people in to visit, but I am thankful that today was the last day.  Just tiring and hectic at times.  The rest of his birthday celebrating will happen on his actual day.

Tonight we were able to video chat with our besties.  I had a few times where I could feel I was starting to tear up.  Saying I miss them would be more than an understatement.  I truly cannot convey in words how my heart feels empty in many ways without them, and without a few others as well.  I forgot how much of a hard time I was having here.  I've been just moving along through the steps and not really working through all of this.  There has been just a complacency that has filled the void.  I need to get more active to try to enjoy what time we have here.  But I do really hope that the amount of time left isn't very long.  I'm realizing more and more that while it was the right move at the moment, its not the permanent right move for us.  We have to start making the effort to plan what we can do to get us back there.  Our families, friends, and lives are waiting for us (and sometimes begging us) to come home.  Some of them truly are in need of our help even.  I can't ignore this type of thing.  Family comes first.  We have to start making the arrangements and plans and details work out in order for moving back to be a possibility.  Because right now, I do not know if we have any other choice.  Not a healthy or productive one anyways.

I've felt it before, but I know I can say it without a shadow of doubt that I am homesick.